I haven’t been posting much in terms of music, nor blogging, nor video content. I’ve been feeling quite lethargic. I’ve been struggling since I’ve been back on medications. The meds have some side effects, and the major side effect that I’m dealing with is fatigue and tiredness. I feel like a zombie for a huge chunk of my days. I thought that this year, I’d be more productive, creative, and overall be making more ofread more
Earlier this year, I deliberately forgoed New Year’s resolutions and goals in general. There was no quarterly planning this time. I briefly thought I’d attempt another quarterly planning session for April through June, though that also got derailed. Perhaps it was a blessing in disguise. It’s still a bit too early to tell. But! I will say, a lot of unexpected events unfolded this year so far, and it’s not even halfway through the yearread more
Countless times in my life, I’ve been told that I’m not good enough, not talented enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough. Or, I’ve been told the opposite, that I’m too smart, too pretty, too kind, too nice, too good to not do XYZ. Listen, I’m not behind in life. And, I’m not unworthy of whatever I want to achieve in life either. Stop placing arbitrary standards onto me, and stop comparing me to everyoneread more
I’ve been blogging on this domain since 2013. Prior to that, I ran and deleted several blogs on sites such as Xanga, Blogspot, Blogger, WordPress.Com and more. Prior to 2013, I’d mostly post about daily life, sometimes created roleplaying blogs, and didn’t really have much value to offer. From 2013 to 2016, I tried offering more valuable content, but still fell short on that. Then after that, I felt as if I was providing contentread more
I don’t want to sound like a victim, but I can’t explain parts of my life without blaming external sources sometimes. Like when it comes to hearing voices, I have no idea in hell why I started hearing voices in the first place. Where did it come from? Because I certainly had no fucking clue that I could hear voices in the first place. I thought people just had thoughts, and some thoughts could beread more
A goal that I can test in 10 minutes is seeing how many words I can learn from watching Running Man by actively writing words down that I don’t know. I’m going to test this right now. I will continue watching 5 minutes of a show from where I last left off. I will write down the words I don’t know, and then translate them either by pausing the show in between or waiting untilread more
I haven’t been keeping up with Success Triggers or taking any other specific course, so I find it a little difficult to figure out what to blog about each day. I remember I used to get all sorts of ideas for what to post. I even saved many drafts of ideas. But when I look over those drafts now, I don’t feel particularly drawn to post on any of those topics. And these days, Iread more
Yesterday, I wrote a post, but ended up setting it to private. I took a break from Success Triggers. This is my second day of not continuing Success Triggers. What’s holding me back is seeing the action I have to take in the next lesson. It’s a step from previous lessons. I thought about skipping it and coming back to it later. Maybe that’s what I’ll do tomorrow. What is my purpose in writing allread more