This blog post is inspired from Steve Pavlina, who recently wrote this post to wrap up 2022. What is it like being me? Being me feels difficult. It can be simple. It can be easy. But usually, I am longing for more. Or, I want to be afforded the same things as other people. Or, I wish my avatar were more accommodating to society’s standards. That somehow, I wouldn’t be much different from others. Andread more
If you go on a heart-aligned path and you come across a situation where your inner compass is going off on a tangent, do you take it? What if it violates other people’s expectations? Violating expectations is not the same as violating boundaries. (And seriously, fuck anyone who violates boundaries consciously and willingly– you’re trash.) Violating expectations is about going against what is considered “normal” or “acceptable” because you know intuitively that it is right.read more
As a former mentally gifted kid, I had a serious issue with procrastination, mostly due to perfectionism, which stemmed from unaddressed emotional needs (e.g. not having a safe learning space, coming from abuse/trauma, unreasonable expectations set by supervising adults, etc.). Nowadays, they have an umbrella term for such cases called “twice exceptional” or 2e for short. I was interested in so many different subjects, but I lacked confidence and withdrew a lot as I wasread more
Countless times in my life, I’ve been told that I’m not good enough, not talented enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough. Or, I’ve been told the opposite, that I’m too smart, too pretty, too kind, too nice, too good to not do XYZ. Listen, I’m not behind in life. And, I’m not unworthy of whatever I want to achieve in life either. Stop placing arbitrary standards onto me, and stop comparing me to everyoneread more
These are notes that I took from Dr. K’s stream (HealthyGamer_GG) on Twitch earlier today. They’re not perfect, and I missed bits of it. (I was hula hooping at the beginning when he said he’d be sharing his protips or rules for life, even missed part of how he phrased it.) But, here is what I wrote: RNG spawn point – you don’t get to choose your race, economic status, your background, etc. Life isread more
Thank goodness internet archives is a thing! I’ve been blogging on this domain since 2013 (my first post apparently tracing back to September 10th, 2013). Prior to that, I had been using WordPress with a subdomain, the title being Conscious Understanding (I had deleted all my old posts, leaving it with just an update back on September 10th, 2013 as well). The years prior, I had been blogging under various pen names on Xanga, Blogspot,read more
Have you ever considered monitoring your daily progress through keeping track of motivational buffs and debuffs? This may seem like a concept of gamifying life, and while there is that aspect as well, I am mostly approaching this from a slightly different angle of bad vs. good choices or habits and how those decisions ultimately stack up and affect us. Motivational buffs are actions that we take that benefit us in some way. It mayread more
I am a bit of a perfectionist. (Okay, maybe a lot of a perfectionist.) The main reason I have been this way for years is because I think it is important to produce and share good quality work. If I know that I am capable of producing better content, then I want to be able to provide that. But sometimes as a perfectionist, working on a project for an extended period of time leads toread more