Writing a Book
(This post contains Amazon affiliate links; more info can be found here or on the sidebar/footer depending on if you’re on mobile/PC.) These days, I’m regaining my energy. I wake up earlier and I’m less likely to take naps midday (though sometimes I still do). I think it’s all thanks to lowering my dose of medicine. I don’t feel like I’m swimming through mud as much. And with that extra energy, the other day, I wrote aread more
What It’s Like Being Me
This blog post is inspired from Steve Pavlina, who recently wrote this post to wrap up 2022. What is it like being me? Being me feels difficult. It can be simple. It can be easy. But usually, I am longing for more. Or, I want to be afforded the same things as other people. Or, I wish my avatar were more accommodating to society’s standards. That somehow, I wouldn’t be much different from others. Andread more
Allowing Time and Space for Healing
I haven’t been posting much in terms of music, nor blogging, nor video content. I’ve been feeling quite lethargic. I’ve been struggling since I’ve been back on medications. The meds have some side effects, and the major side effect that I’m dealing with is fatigue and tiredness. I feel like a zombie for a huge chunk of my days. I thought that this year, I’d be more productive, creative, and overall be making more ofread more
When Psychosis Returns
A few months ago, I experienced a second psychotic episode. I had a feeling that it was going to occur earlier in the year when my stress levels were much higher than usual. I also had body pains (my wrists and ankles) as well as a sore throat, which made it difficult to rely on coping skills or any diversions. I couldn’t journal or walk for more than a few minutes. Meditation was the bareread more
My Top 4 Android Apps as of Late
These are the top four Android apps I’ve been using lately, all in health and education: 1. HabitsWhen I was attending uni, I used to use an iOS app called Lift, not to be confused with Lyft (the ride-sharing service). Lift is now known as Coach.Me and they still have an app, though it is still only really compatible with iOS. They have a web version, though it wasn’t always convenient for tracking habits inread more
Why I Stay Quiet on Goals, Until They Transpire
I generally avoid sharing goals. I’m terrible at committing to a goal publicly. But otherwise, I’ve accomplished quite a few goals on my own, without needing to be held accountable to anyone in particular. There were times where I felt rushed to achieve a goal as soon as other people were clued into what I was doing (mostly because people are excited, and ahhh!). And, now I’m actively keeping people out of my business, unlessread more
Violating Expectations
If you go on a heart-aligned path and you come across a situation where your inner compass is going off on a tangent, do you take it? What if it violates other people’s expectations? Violating expectations is not the same as violating boundaries. (And seriously, fuck anyone who violates boundaries consciously and willingly– you’re trash.) Violating expectations is about going against what is considered “normal” or “acceptable” because you know intuitively that it is right.read more
My Perceived Weakness is One of My Greatest Strengths: Refusal to Commit
As a former mentally gifted kid, I had a serious issue with procrastination, mostly due to perfectionism, which stemmed from unaddressed emotional needs (e.g. not having a safe learning space, coming from abuse/trauma, unreasonable expectations set by supervising adults, etc.). Nowadays, they have an umbrella term for such cases called “twice exceptional” or 2e for short. I was interested in so many different subjects, but I lacked confidence and withdrew a lot as I wasread more
Deliberate Divergent Exploration Helped Me to Trust My Intuition More
Earlier this year, I deliberately forgoed New Year’s resolutions and goals in general. There was no quarterly planning this time. I briefly thought I’d attempt another quarterly planning session for April through June, though that also got derailed. Perhaps it was a blessing in disguise. It’s still a bit too early to tell. But! I will say, a lot of unexpected events unfolded this year so far, and it’s not even halfway through the yearread more
Writing a New Bucket List (Short-Term)
I had an unofficial bucket list in my head many years before, particularly stemming from my high school years. There’s some items that I’ve since had retracted, and a few that I’ve decided to give more thought. Though instead of putting optional items, I decided to put the ones that are most important to me. And instead of it being a bucket list for all the items that I want to check off over theread more