What Should I Do

Yesterday, I wrote a post, but ended up setting it to private. I took a break from Success Triggers. This is my second day of not continuing Success Triggers. What’s holding me back is seeing the action I have to take in the next lesson. It’s a step from previous lessons. I thought about skipping it and coming back to it later. Maybe that’s what I’ll do tomorrow.

What is my purpose in writing all these blog posts? First, it started off with me just posting randomly one day. And then, it seemed like a good idea to try to post once a day, just as something to do. I didn’t really have anything valuable to offer. And then, I thought about finishing something that I haven’t before, since I have a tendency to leave things unfinished. That’s why I decided to go back and finish Success Triggers. I still do want to finish it. It’s just that I feel resistant to change these days, and the next lesson requires action. That’s why I’m procrastinating.

Sometimes, I wish I could just do nothing for something. Or, do something I already am doing for something. So recently, I found out about Rent a Friend. It’s exactly what it sounds. You pay someone to hang out, chill, maybe go to a restaurant or watch a movie or attend a concert. You pay for that person’s time. I got a couple of friend requests, but one did not reply and the other was looking for a specific interest that I do not know anything about. I also tried offering it on my Instagram, but one wanted to meet in person (and I’m not meeting even friends right now because of COVID-19), and the other ghosted me. Maybe I can stick to it and try to find people, but so far no success.

I thought about doing mukbangs, but it’s kind of awkward letting my family know about this so that I can go upstairs and set up my camera to record myself eating. I think they’d find the idea weird. If I was living by myself, I’d definitely try it. But, it’s awkward because I usually eat all my meals downstairs and it’s not exactly like I can hide that I’m doing this.

I thought about offering some type of service, but I don’t know what would be profitable. Well, they can all make money I suppose, but I don’t know how to go about it. I thought I could teach Korean, teach how to build a website with WordPress, or teach piano. I used to think I could be some sort of coach, but I don’t think that’s a good idea right now. Well, maybe for absolute beginners. I could teach some basics on building small habits. I’m just not equipped with knowing how to deal with big problems or making drastic changes.

If I had people to work with, I would be a singer. I don’t feel driven enough to produce music on my own. It takes a lot of effort. Sometimes in the end, I still can’t get the sound right. It takes practice to get better. I just haven’t put in the time to learn anything new with music production. I don’t feel as motivated or passionate. I’ve never been so disciplined to do things. I usually go off feeling. And anyway, if you want to do music, why do it if you don’t enjoy it? Might as well do something that requires less creativity like accounting.

Anyway, I just had a sudden inspiration for a new post. I probably will only post it tomorrow though. I’ll write it while the idea is fresh on my mind. I like the idea that Steve has of batch blogging, where you can write a bunch of posts in one day and schedule the posts out over days. That’s what I’ll do with the next post.